What am I doing?
Sometimes I wish that I had a clear vision. I want to be a person who says, I'm going to be a doctor. And then ten or so years later, I am. There's commitment there, a high level of study and concentration, and as my dad would add, perspiration. My brother is one of those people, and yes, he's a doctor. He's been working at it for quite some time, and I'm very proud of him.
My method is less planning and more stumbling. I've happened into my current profession of baking by accident, I like to say. And I'm always searching for my style, for what makes my baking unique. I want to be a classicist and make only French pastries: tarts, puff pastry from scratch, the perfect light and flaky croissant. But then I want to use only exotic spices, or only bake mini desserts, or make nostalgic confections....and then I get distracted. That's how this summer has been: busy enough to not think for weeks at a time, and then periods of agonizing what-am-I doing. Until I decide, I'll bake another batch of brownies and see what conspires.
Posted on Mon, August 30, 2010